I May Be Slow, But I'm Doing It

I don't work out NEARLY enough.  It is a major downfall I have.  I always have good intentions, but the follow through doesn't always happen.  I know if I start working out more, the scale will move more, and right now.... I REALLY want that.  I miss having those 3-5 pound losses (or more) every week like I did in the beginning.  Now, I'm lucky if I get a 1 pound loss lately.  I had one good 4 pound loss a couple weeks ago, but other than that.... it's been very slow going.  I finally forced myself to go for a walk/run yesterday.  I found this app a while back called Map My Walk that uses GPS to track your mileage and time.  Looking through my (very short) work out history on the app, I realized that even though these workouts are spaced way far out, each time I go for a walk/run I get a little faster.  It's not much... but seeing that made me SO HAPPY!! And Motivated to do more!  And even better..... the scale was DOWN 1.6 pounds this morning! 

I used to HATE running.  I couldn't have run if my life depended on it.  If I were in a Zombie apocalypse, I might as well have just laid down and waited to be eaten.  When I first started trying to "run" it was more of just an awkward walk thingy where I lifted my knees a little higher and swung my arms a little more.  But now, I can actually jog.  I'm slower than a turtle walking through molasses and I don't "run" as far as I would like, but.... hey, I'm doing it.  And looking at the results above, I'm getting better.  If I keep it up, eventually, I might just be able to beat that turtle. 

To Realize How Far We Have Come, We Must Remember Where We Have Been

 

Today I went clothes shopping for an outfit to wear 

to my daughter's Graduation, that would also work 

as a professional Interview Outfit.  

I walked away empty handed.

For once, the clothes FIT.  AND the top was a size 14/16!! 

Putting it on felt A-MAZING! 

Then I looked into the full length mirror....

It just didn't look good on me.

I left feeling disappointed.

I've lost 67 pounds, and yet, I still can't 

find anything that will look decent on me.

But then I remember back to being in that SAME 

dressing room, trying on size 26 clothes and

they were TOO TIGHT!! 

I may not be satisfied now, or able to find

clothes that look "cute" on me.....

But I'm definitely heading in the right direction.

I guess sometimes to realize how far we have come,

we have to remember where we have been...

MORNING NAKED WEIGH IN: WEEK 29

TOM came to visit this month, so I wasn't expecting much of a loss..... and didn't get one.

Loss for the week: .2 lbs

Total loss so far: 65.8 lbs

MORNING NAKED WEIGH IN: WEEK 27 AND WEEK 28

Week 27

Weigh in Results: +.8lbs

Total Loss So Far:  63.8

 

Week 28

Weigh in results: -1.8

Total Loss So Far:  65.6

More NSV's (Non Scale Victories)

This week I have been focusing on some of the "NSV's" I've noticed so far.   They are small things, but for those that are or have ever been morbidly obese..... you will understand.

1.   When I sit in my car, the steering wheel no longer rubs my stomach, and I don't have to have the seat ALL the way back anymore.  There is actually a gap now between my stomach and the steering wheel.

2.  I can now fold my hands in my lap when I'm sitting.  Before I lost weight, I had a hard time trying to figure out what to do with my hands and my arms if there was no arm rests.   I was too big around to clasp my fingers and I had NO LAP whatsoever.  My stomach rested on the tops of my legs.  I now have a lap and can comfortably sit in the chairs at my daughters cheer practice and not even THINK about what my arms are doing. 

3.  I can now bend over and pick something up off the floor.  Even small items.

4.  I can put my socks and shoes on and not feel like I have just run a marathon.

Morning Naked Weigh In - Week 17

What a STRESSFUL Week!!  Between an Emergency trip to the hospital with my husband,  Him off work all week, Lay Off's at my work, and a meeting to discuss this "critical period" at work,  I have been one stressed out Momma!  The scale shows it too....... I GAINED 1.4lbs.   Gotta get busy and hit the gym this week to work it off!  Weigh In results: 248.6 pounds. 

NOT JUST FOR ME, BUT ALSO FOR THEM

This rings so true!  My children are a big reason why I ultimately decided on Weight Loss Surgery.  I can preach to them all day long about eating right and exercising, but if they see me making poor choices, not exercising, and always being unhappy with myself, who am I teaching them to become?

Welcome To OPERATION: GOAL WEIGHT

I've been on many diets throughout out my life time.  I've managed to lose weight before, but have always gained it right back plus some, winding up weighing more than before starting my diet.  My struggle with weight began when I was 19,  fresh out of high school, finally on my "own", and a newlywed.  I've been fat ever since.  I am now one year shy of 40.  The most weight I have ever managed to lose was 85 pounds, and that was on the Medifast diet.  I stayed on the diet for 8 months, and was able to maintain my weight for a few months, but eventually the weight started to creep back on, picking up speed over the past year and half, until I catapulted myself to my highest weight ever recorded:  300 pounds.   

Notice I stated, the highest weight EVER RECORDED?  That's because, I honestly do not know what my highest weight was.  I avoided scales like they were the freaking Plague.   In August of 2013 I made the decision to have Weight Loss Surgery (RNY Gastric Bypass).  At my initial consultation I weighed in at 297 pounds.   After that visit, and the two months leading up to my actual surgery, I went on an eating spree, eating all the things I knew I would be giving up, polishing off each night with a big 'ol bowl of ICE CREAM! I know without a doubt that I gained weight during that time.  Twice I attempted to weigh myself, just to see, but my digital scale would not settle on a weight, it was all over the place before giving me an error message.  Once I started my pre-op diet and was back to 300 pounds, it finally gave me a weight.  I realized then, the reason for the wonky scale and the error, was because 300 was the highest weight my scale could register.  I was getting weird results because I was too fat for my scale to read my weight!   So 300 pounds is the starting weight that I use for my Beginning weight, even though I KNOW it was higher.  

I had my Roux-En-Y Gastric Bypass Surgery on October 28, 2013. So far, I have lost 48 pounds. I wish I had started blogging right away about all that I experienced.  I tried a few times in another blog, but was unhappy with the blog host.  I was unable to access the blog at all for a couple of weeks, and finally gave up on that site.   I had an old blog, www.shrinking-jeans.blogspot.com, and began blogging there again.  I'd been thinking about starting a fresh new blog to document my weight loss after having my surgery, and then found out recently there is another blog with a very similar name to my old blog, so I decided to start this one.  A fresh start to a new blog for the fresh start to a new me.   I hope you visit often and keep up with my progress.  I'll be very grateful for the support, and  accountability it will provide.  Please feel free to comment and message me anytime with any questions you may have.