To Realize How Far We Have Come, We Must Remember Where We Have Been

 

Today I went clothes shopping for an outfit to wear 

to my daughter's Graduation, that would also work 

as a professional Interview Outfit.  

I walked away empty handed.

For once, the clothes FIT.  AND the top was a size 14/16!! 

Putting it on felt A-MAZING! 

Then I looked into the full length mirror....

It just didn't look good on me.

I left feeling disappointed.

I've lost 67 pounds, and yet, I still can't 

find anything that will look decent on me.

But then I remember back to being in that SAME 

dressing room, trying on size 26 clothes and

they were TOO TIGHT!! 

I may not be satisfied now, or able to find

clothes that look "cute" on me.....

But I'm definitely heading in the right direction.

I guess sometimes to realize how far we have come,

we have to remember where we have been...

Welcome To OPERATION: GOAL WEIGHT

I've been on many diets throughout out my life time.  I've managed to lose weight before, but have always gained it right back plus some, winding up weighing more than before starting my diet.  My struggle with weight began when I was 19,  fresh out of high school, finally on my "own", and a newlywed.  I've been fat ever since.  I am now one year shy of 40.  The most weight I have ever managed to lose was 85 pounds, and that was on the Medifast diet.  I stayed on the diet for 8 months, and was able to maintain my weight for a few months, but eventually the weight started to creep back on, picking up speed over the past year and half, until I catapulted myself to my highest weight ever recorded:  300 pounds.   

Notice I stated, the highest weight EVER RECORDED?  That's because, I honestly do not know what my highest weight was.  I avoided scales like they were the freaking Plague.   In August of 2013 I made the decision to have Weight Loss Surgery (RNY Gastric Bypass).  At my initial consultation I weighed in at 297 pounds.   After that visit, and the two months leading up to my actual surgery, I went on an eating spree, eating all the things I knew I would be giving up, polishing off each night with a big 'ol bowl of ICE CREAM! I know without a doubt that I gained weight during that time.  Twice I attempted to weigh myself, just to see, but my digital scale would not settle on a weight, it was all over the place before giving me an error message.  Once I started my pre-op diet and was back to 300 pounds, it finally gave me a weight.  I realized then, the reason for the wonky scale and the error, was because 300 was the highest weight my scale could register.  I was getting weird results because I was too fat for my scale to read my weight!   So 300 pounds is the starting weight that I use for my Beginning weight, even though I KNOW it was higher.  

I had my Roux-En-Y Gastric Bypass Surgery on October 28, 2013. So far, I have lost 48 pounds. I wish I had started blogging right away about all that I experienced.  I tried a few times in another blog, but was unhappy with the blog host.  I was unable to access the blog at all for a couple of weeks, and finally gave up on that site.   I had an old blog, www.shrinking-jeans.blogspot.com, and began blogging there again.  I'd been thinking about starting a fresh new blog to document my weight loss after having my surgery, and then found out recently there is another blog with a very similar name to my old blog, so I decided to start this one.  A fresh start to a new blog for the fresh start to a new me.   I hope you visit often and keep up with my progress.  I'll be very grateful for the support, and  accountability it will provide.  Please feel free to comment and message me anytime with any questions you may have.